they were my oxygen...

important announcement

When I caught those two words in my mailbox, I felt my gut turning upside down. I somehow knew... I just knew what's in that email. And this is it:
"Suede would like to announce that from next year they will be working on their own individual projects. There will not be a new studio album until the band feel that the moment is artistically right to make one. This announcement does not affect the forthcoming touring commitments. Suede would like to thank the fans for their wonderful support over the years. See you in the next life."

The only thing I've been holding on to is gone, what to say? If you know me personally you'd know how a huge part of my life is only Suede, Suede, Suede. I've found friends, foes, flirts, and even love in Suede. I listen to them everyday, I run a fansite and moderate a forum on a daily basis. I know them by heart. Everytime they're on TV, or whatever, I feel like seeing my best friends there. People always relate Suede with me, think of them as 'my' band. I was even nicknamed Suede back in highschool.

While people, happiness, and tragedies come and go like oxygen, I always had the comfortable security in my childish belief that Suede will always be there to turn to. While I live my dull life, nothing ever beats the excitement of anticipating their new releases, promoting their stuff to everyone, hearing their songs on the radio, or voting for them in polls [never forget TOTP October 17 2003!].

Yes bands don't last forever, but I'd always thought that I would still be able to take my future children to their 20th anniversary party...

So I sit and ask the sky, ask it where it all went wrong. But at the end of the day I could only say that they will never be my past, they remain in my heart forever. Their gems will always be in my possession to be enjoyed over and over again. The memories will always be there. And nothing can take away the fact that I've grown with them since i was only a 16 year old ingenue to 23 year old girl, and that they've been a fundamental element that made me what I am today. They may split but I will still be this black clad, vegetarian, music-obsessed, open-minded architect graduate webmistress with international social life who I would never be had I never known them. And, I will still have everything else they've ever taught me about: music, English, love, friendship, life; drag acts, drug acts, sex and glue. All.

I will also still have the community of friends I found through them. I love you all and I hope we'll stay together no matter what.

Thanks Suede for not only the music but everything. See you in the next life.